Thursday, April 16, 2015

Fighting the system and my husband

Talked to the chairperson today and was told that she had very little power to over-ride the professor and "make" her do what I want and allow me to take the course even though I would be completing the clinical hours in the first two weeks.

I explained the second half of my call and that if I wasn't permitted to take the course I want, then she needed to help me out in getting me into the other available nursing course that I could take (she said that she couldn't help me get into a nursing course with a clinical component)... which she said that she would speak to THAT professor as well.

And she would get back to me... though no time line was offered :(

This week's work for school isn't too rough, I have a quiz and an assignment (with the online simulation thingy they have us doing) so not too bad except next week we have not one but TWO exams and my husband is UBER concerned about and so is getting all stressed out about and naturally taking it out on me.... he expects me to be studying 24 hrs a day - or at least doing so in front of him.... which is not how I work/do things. So of course he takes it upon himself to
"make sure" I do by downloading this week's power points (which I had already done) without actually talking to me.... but he didn't do it out of a place of love, he did it from that critical point of view where he thinks I'm slacking off. If he had just opened up his mouth and talked to me, I wouldn't have yelled at him, lost my cool and gotten upset.

Thing is, ya, I slack when he's around because he only has 2 days off and I like to spend time with him - when he isn't around, I study - I do my work. I'm not stupid, I do want to succeed. I want to pass this course. Why would I choose to spend 3x the amount of $$ to FAIL???!!!

So ya, I'm fighting so many areas and it's frustrating and irritating. Goodness, I don't know why this is always so bloody hard!

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Geeze Louise

So I've put in for the next course and was in contact with the professor to find out how quickly I can start the clinical hours. Only to be told (after a bunch of emails back and forth) in the end that I'm not allowed to take the course because my clinical hours won't be spread throughout the semester (dude - I'm doing school nursing... I don't know of schools that go throughout the summer - yes I know summer school exists in highschool but I'm not in one). WTH!!!!

I've had MAJOR issues finding a placement and then when I do, I'm STILL not able to utilize it. How can this be?!

So I went over the professor's head and went to the chairperson of the program - someone who can hopefully have my back and help me out. Last semester when I was having difficulties, she had my back, so I'm hoping that she'll have my back again and step in on my behalf.

Problem is, is that if I can't take this course, then I won't have any ability to take any courses because all the ones that I'm eligible for are filled or closed so I can't enroll in them. Ugh, just my luck!

Oh ya, and I was told a couple of days ago by my education counsellor that I'm somehow missing a course and have to "fit" it in somewhere, somehow before winter semester.... and the course is filled up for the summer semester already and I can't take it in the fall so I have NO clue what I can possibly do.

So ya, I feel like I keep getting sucker punched left and right. Just when I feel like the pieces are falling into place, I get punched in the gut again. Hopefully I can hear good news tomorrow when I reach out to the chairperson by telephone.

Saturday, April 4, 2015

Yay for me

Had my last days of clinical and PASSED!!!!!!!!!!

Now I just have the rest of the class stuff to get through and I'm friggin done with this course!

The one course that has been the bane of my existance for my educational journey. So I only have 3 1/2 more weeks til this course is completed.

I'm so beyond excited. We celebrated by going out for breakfast to Dennys.

I'm sooooooo UBER excited. Now to get through the exams and tests.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Well that sucked

Had my surgery, went worse than I expected. Didn't hear from the surgeon after the fact really as he saw me in post-op but we didn't really talk as I was in a SUPER amount of pain. As in, BAWLING!!!!!!!!!!!!

The nurse had the audacity to tell me that I needed to "calm down" - dude, I'm in pain, how about you do something about it and THEN I'll calm down!!! UUUUUUGGGGHHHHHH

I even told her that I would calm down once the pain was reduced. Her response was that I had gotten everything that I could.... as if that should stop anything! I couldn't believe that she wasn't advocating for me. It was VERY incredibly frustrating to be on the pt side and experience this all. The way that they tried to "deal" with my pain was by giving me Ativan.... because I was hyperventilating due to the pain. Oh and giving me a popsicle.

I was told that I had packing "down there", so the nurses kept checking me. The surgeon when he stepped in (because I was in so much pain) told me that I had a small abcess so I'm assuming the packing had to do with that. It has any other time. This time was a bit different.

The pain didn't decrease until I changed position of being on my back to being lateral (Rt lateral was better) then when I decided to try to rest (my pain had decreased from 9 to 5 which was far more managable) that when I closed my eyes and rested my Sats dropped to 83% which sent the nurses running.... so they wouldn't let me relax.... but instead shifted me off to the next stage of post-op where they rush you to get dressed and leave!

There my nausea picked up and I ended up vomiting the popsicle and then dry heaving - it all sucks. Thankfully the new nurse offered me something to help for the nausea and it settled enough for me to try to get dressed. At this point hubby came in and provided some assistance, which was certainly needed and very helpful.

This time I made sure that hubby brought with him a wheelchair cuz the last time he forgot one and I had to wait for him to get it. Then he loaded me up and off we went with the discharge instructions and prescription.

Hubby was there when I vomited and knew I was feeling really rough so when we got in the car I told him that I wanted to go home. I realized as we were leaving the hospital that one of the computers was in the same city and since I was going to be off for almost 3 wks that it was important to go get the computer since we were already in that neck of the woods. So off we went and grabbed that. Then I told him in no uncertain terms to TAKE ME HOME!!!

Then he told me that he wanted to take me to go bring the prescription in to the pharmacy which I was k with until he told me that he wanted to pick up my gingerale then as well.... I didn't want to wait, I was feeling yucky and I just had surgery.... I just wanted to go home!!!!! To crawl in my bed and try to sleep! UGH!

15 minutes later he comes back and asks me if we could stop off at the ethnic grocery store for something for his mom, which it seemed like it was going to be an easy in, easy out so I agreed to it... then we got there and it was TWENTY minutes later that I got so frustrated with my increasing pain and nausea and I went to the door of the store to find out what was taking so long and said to him "WTH, I'm just recovering from surgery, TAKE ME HOME!!!!!" The bugger had ordered MEAT!!! And was waiting for it to be cut up and prepared. Boy did it make me angry!

I finally made it home and immediately went to bed.

Now for a bit of personal information...... having surgery to my rectum sucked! You know how I mentioned the packing above?! Ya, the surgeon packed my rectum! I'm assuming he incised the abcess from the rectum side and that's why he packed the rectum from that side. I'm assuming he had to maneuver more this time around because my rectum was SUPER swollen.

I've taken the stool softener from the get go but the feeling of needing to poo was terrible. Then when it was time to actually go, it felt like I was trying to give birth thru my rectum. Oh my poor rectum! As if it hasn't been tortured enough, then it has to go through this! My poor bottom was bleeding again afterwards. I was almost in tears again after the first time. Boy you dont realize how you take this sort of thing forgranted until you can't do it!

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Rescheduled and school update

Last week I told my boss that I wouldn't be able to work for 3 wks after surgery.... surgery was scheduled for the beginning of April...

Then today I found out that I'm going under the knife TOMORROW!!!  Eeeeek

I am supposed to work Thursday, guess I'm not anymore!

School has been a rollar coaster ride, one moment I feel like I'm getting somewhere and the next I feel like I'm failing.... I can't seem to get things on an even keel.

I was told today by my prof that I totally screwed up my clinical assignment.... she told me that I totally missed an entire section and that the rest of my assignment pretty much gets a zero..... Eeeeeeek!!!!!!!! Yikes, now I'm trying to get my prof to give me another chance. Wish me luck! Seems like I need it.

Friday, March 13, 2015

Down and up and down and up and down again

Had a pt today.... admitted with CHF and A-fib - report indicated no issues

when I got her her VS were great, no probs

Half hour later (approx.) she becomes confused, diaphoretic, RR increases, decreased consciousness (very drowsy).... so I'm thinking worsening CHF....

Give some lasix IV push and half hour later no change.... like seriously...

so about 15 min later I see that I have to take her BS.... then it hits me - shit balls she's low

BS comes back..... 1.7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now for those of you who are not from Canada.... that's like 30 in the US

I say absolutely NOTHING and RUN (oh yes, I seriously did!) and pulled some D50 (Dextrose) from my pyxsis and pushed that puppy straight into her vein... then waited for her to gain some consciousness!

Two minutes later she perks up and I push some OJ, crackers and cheese down her throat.... I tell the family about her low sugar and the grand daughter goes "oh ya, this has happened before and this is how she is when this happens"..... face palm!

When I retake her BS it's 8.8 - well at least she reacted well!

Goodness I can't believe I missed this one..... but wait, it gets better!!!

Dinner comes 30 min later and I make sure that the family is aware that she needs to eat all the protein stuff.... which thankfully she does.

Bedtime comes around and I check her sugar and it's 3.5 (think 50ish) - DAMN IT!

I push D50 again and push a banana (her potassium was low today anyways, she could use it!) and some glucerna (nice protein content).... then I get busy doing bedtime stuff and when I get a chance to recheck it an hour later....

it's 3.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!  GAH!!!

Who the HELL runs thru that much sugar in an hour! I call the Dr as I'm not sure whether I'm supposed to push another amp of D50.... thankfully he calls back right away.

Tells me to give another amp of D50 and to recheck her sugar in another hour.... so just as I was leaving shift sugar is rechecked and it's 6.8 (think 115ish).... well that is a WHOLE lot better but I doubt that it will stay that way.

Moral of the story: I have no idea how this woman blew through so much glucose on my shift! She doesn't have an infectious process, isn't running a temp.... and can't put her on a D10 drip because she's already fluid overload.... so who knows what they're going to do with her... I suppose keep pushing D50 amps???  CRAZINESS!

THIS is what I get for having time off.... seems that when I do I always get a shit storm when I get back (this past weekend was no different!) Geeze, how are things going to be when I'm off 3 wks after surgery?!

Friday, February 27, 2015

Not as important as I thought

Was supposed to have surgery today....

The surgeon's secretary called me the day before yesterday and told me that she had to reschedule me.... now trying to reschedule this surgery is easier said than done!

When time is available for the surgeon, it isn't for me! When there is a period of time available for me, it's when I made time for clinical... which means I can't do surgery then! So we had to post pone it and when we finally found time, it's almost a month and a half away now!

Grrrrr.... I just want to get on with this and get it over with!

Only good thing is that I will be able to focus on my school work til then... the semester should be close to over by the time I'm able to have the surgery. Just hoping that I don't get pushed back even further by then... I mean I get that things come up (such as cancers and such) but damn it sucks to get pushed back.

Well I suppose I should go now and do some studying - I have an exam due this week!